Tuesday, March 31, 2009 @ 10:32 PM
SICK.
had fever today and i literally did only eat, sleep, eat sleep. did the ushers forecast at night though. today its the first time in my life that i overworked myself and fell sick. i consider myself quite a healthy baby as the last time i had fever was like i think 2-3 years back? had to leave work aside and came home. i applaud myself as i actually took the train instead of cab home. i was tempted to hop onto a cab at swissotel but forgo that idea. had to save money man. hahas. i bought my own lunch and liang cha home and took medication. i feel so independent. mum only came home in the evening to cook porridge for me.
i am heading back to work tml though i can feel that i have yet to fully recover. but just claiming in the name if Jesus that i will be made well. please pray for me. i dont like this weak feeling.
Sunday, March 22, 2009 @ 10:52 PM
i was never a fan of letting go. if you know you well enough, you know that i put my heart into everything that i do. to let go of something its difficult for me but i know i have to do it. there are things in your life you need to let go off so that something new can happen. you can never grasp the whole world in your hand unless you are God.
i was talking to roslind yesterday and i felt that i was speaking to myself instead. things that i was saying to her to encourage her impacted my own life too. its amazing how God works.
i am on a mission this week. in just 3 words: seek, knock, ask.
i wish you a great week ahead. :)
Sunday, March 15, 2009 @ 1:44 AM
i seriously dislike people who dont lead by example. you would nag at people to do one thing, but when it comes to doing it yourself, you give excuses. whatever pls. you cant do it, then you jolly well just keep your mouth shut when others dont too. you are not even qualified to judge. its like getting the best dancer in Singapore to be a judge of a cooking competition. you would be like thinking... "WHAT?"
double standard. irritating.
Thursday, March 12, 2009 @ 10:31 PM
well... some updates of my life
1) I GOT BACK MY RESULTS THIS WEEK
like what i've told many people, i dont know whether should i feel elated or sad.. firstly, i got a C+ and NO As this time round. My GPA fell by 0.05. HOWEVER, i got a DISTINCTION for my travel & leisure. i am really amazed how did i even do it. when i saw that distinction, i couldnt believe my eyes. so yeah.. should i be overjoyed that i got another distinction or should i be depress cos my GPA fell. but i am feeling more depress then joy.
2) i FINALLY sent my precious phone for repair.
just today, i gave up on my power button that was spoilt like a few months back. thank God i have a spare phone at home to last me through the next 3-4 days.
3) i've been packing lunch boxes to office since tuesday
this resulted in high savings. but i bought a skirt today :( but its only 20 bucks and its an office skirt. i bought it because i only have ONE formal bottom and the workplace i am in now is actually a formal dresscode workplace. i've been wearing jeans to office but with great fear of being told off.
4) i need to get a social life
this is self explanatory.
thats all.
something i read that really speaks of how i am feeling now,
Letting go of perfection.
It is good to remember that one of our goals in life is to not be perfect. We often lose track of this aspiration. When we make mistakes, we think that we are failing or not measuring up. But if life is about experimenting, experiencing, and learning, then to be imperfect is a prerequisite. Life becomes much more interesting once we let go of our quest for perfection and aspire for imperfection instead.
This doesn’t mean that we don’t strive to be our best. We simply accept that there is no such thing as perfection—especially in life. All living things are in a ceaseless state of movement. Even as you read this, your hair is growing, your cells are dying and being reborn, and your blood is moving through your veins. Your life changes more than it stays the same. Perfection may happen in a moment, but it will not last because it is an impermanent state. Trying to hold on to perfection or forcing it to happen causes frustration and unhappiness.
In spite of this, many of us are in the habit of trying to be perfect. One way to nudge ourselves out of this tendency is to look at our lives and notice that no one is judging us to see whether or not we are perfect. Sometimes, perfectionism is a holdover from our childhood—an ideal we inherited from a demanding parent. We are adults now, and we can choose to let go of the need to perform for someone else’s approval. Similarly, we can choose to experience the universe as a loving place where we are free to be imperfect. Once we realize this, we can begin to take ourselves less seriously and have more fun. Imperfection is inherent to being human. By embracing your imperfections, you embrace yourself.
Sunday, March 08, 2009 @ 10:51 PM
perhaps if i could ask the question why it would make me feel much better
but whats the point of just feeling much better while you know things are not solved.
:(
i am upset once again. and i detest this feeling.
Saturday, March 07, 2009 @ 10:44 AM
讓我為你而活
讓我為你而站立
永不放棄像你愛我
讓我為你前進
had cgm last night.. this part of the chinese worship song we sang just brought me to tears..
went to meet matt after cg. had a good time of fellowship. ever since work started, i miss all my friends so so so so much. my social life is turning really bad as i am so tired after work each day and must head to bed by 12am. i need an expansion in my capacity. next week i will be working overtime as the event is coming up on the 16 march. thats when i can expect ZERO social life. i am not complaining as work is quite an enjoyment. i rather work then to be slacking at home. i feel useless when i dont work. thats just me. hahahs. workaholic maybe?
results should be out next week! i am NERVOUS. to be frank, i dont think i am able to score as well this semester. i am just praying for a miracle! yes! praying for at least 3 As and 2 Bs. is not difficult actually.. but this sem has just been tough with everything..
But no matter what, i am still beliving. yes, still holding on.
heres a shoutout to all my friends:
I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN YOU! though i am not a fan of MSN or facebook and doesnt talk to you all often through the week, believe me that i really think of everyone of you! i really hope that i can be there to go out, have lunch (YES, JACQ), look at cute guys and drool over them, but my time is really tight now. even msges to me can be ignored, i am sincerely apologetic over that. I promise i will find that balance soon. :) and i really wanna thank henry and yh, thanks for always volunteering yourself to get dinner/bubble tea for me on fridays after work as you know i am a hungry monster. you are greatly appreciated.
Sunday, March 01, 2009 @ 10:10 PM
look at what jacksen tan did for himself! he actually went to buy himself a domain.
and now i have an email account with him! hahahs. my goodness!
he is such a joke
